Mr Elsey C. Larry

Hi…

It is been a long time I did not post something in my blogs, since the last one. Well… now I am working as part time security at my campus for one month starting 1^st September 2008 until further notice from my campus management. Kinda fun working as security guard, coz I do have time doing my revision and assignment, besides that I am try gaining some experiences which can come once in a lifetime. I think it is good for me to work now, at least helping me clear my problems from my head… Problems, when it will stop?? Please, leave me alone, give me time to breaths….

Last week, our university won the Festival Tari Universiti-Universiti Borneo. We won the Best Costume, Second Place for Creative Dance and Ethnic Dance, which makes us winners the whole events. Congrats to all Unitarian Dancers… All of u deserves it. Keep up the good job.

Before the Festival Tari, we have the Freedom Festival also, for Christian students which is also success. Thank you to all the campuses and committee for the hard work.

Before the Freedom Fest, we also have this KSH or Karnival Sukan Harapan. Hurmm…. I involve with all this event officially. Makes me busy and really help me forgetting my problems a little while. To many “before” has being used here.. Haahahaha…. Funny? Hurmmm… No idea…..

A lot of things happen lately, which brings good memory and bad memory. But all of this only part of things that happen in our life and must happen. As normal human being we cannot escape from all of these matters. It’s just matter of time on how its effect us, when and how we handle it. Some people cannot handle it and some people take time to handle and control it. As for me, there is thing that I can handle and control and sometimes I cannot handle or control it. Why? No comment.

I have a question to ask to whom who read this blog. In morning light, half awake and half asleep have you ever laid there thinking, what was the dream all about? Have you ever felt how far a heart can fall? Have you ever stayed up waiting for a telephone call or text message just to want hear or read text messages from somebody that loves say hello cause you miss he or she so much…. Have u ever deeply in love?? When u think that person is the right one but its turn out that the person is belong to somebody else.. All u can do is only let him or her go…. People always say, if we love somebody we must willing to sacrifice even though the sacrifices very painful, but bear in mind, there is someone out there who suit you, its just matter of time and place whether we meet them soon or later. Be patients…

I’m hoping the time pass very fast… I could not wait anymore.. I want to go home… No place that far like home.. All I want is HOME!! I need to go home……. I need to get out of here… if I have to run, if I have to crawl, if I have to swim a hundred rivers, just a climb a thousand wall, always know that I would find a way to get to where you are, there’s no place like HOME!!….. I really miss my family now!! God please help me.. I need u to guide me.. Don’t leave me alone… I need someone who can I hold now, listen to my problems and shoulder to cry………………………… I’m not strong enough to stand by my own…

People come and go in our life, leave the footprints and memories to our hearts. But until when? When will I can grab you and keep u forever??? Every time I wanna grab you, I lost you. Why it’s hard for you to understand that I need you…. I need you so bad…. What should I do to make you stay right by my side?? Am I selfish cause wanting u always stay right by my side? I think you will do the same thing to the one whom you loved… am I right?

Sometimes what people say might be true… Talking with a bunch new friends help us forget our problems a little while. Sitting together, shares some thought and do some gossiping really helps us to rid the problem a little while. Or we can do it as eating and drinking or going to friend’s private birthday party also one of the way forget our problems. Hurmmm… But as always, it is all depends on ourselves on how we solve, control and handle the problems….

Anyway, that’s all for now…